Boring Guy Says

 I don’t know if it's a common experience, watching fictional characters and comparing their life to your own. See everything that they have and you only wish you had, making you feel outright bad. But you continue watching anyway, cause you need some sort of escape. Maybe we find a way to live thorugh them, however briefly may it be. We get bored with our lives and seek change, even if only imaginary. Its only natural. The human mind is astonishing in its ability to adapt. And when it adapts, the most extraordinary of circumstances can become mundane. Does the comparison make you feel bad? Thinking about how your circumstances could be different if only things in your life had transpired differently. Does that feeling linger? Long after youve turned off the TV. Maybe it does maybe it doesn't. Maybe its just me. I'm anxiety prone. Little things can make me feel bad, but I try to not stay in that place for long. You have to make do with what you have. You can seek escape. B...

Overthinking has always been my go-to mechanism. It turns into sleep-depriving anxiety every now and then. I've always been like this. I remember I used to have crippling anxiety towards a particular subject when I was in 6th grade. For the life of me, I couldn't wrap my head around it and the fear of not getting it right would cause me to cry in the dark on the roof of our house. I was 11. But I'm grateful for that. Grateful that I've had those experiences so early on. It's kinda like I got a head start on the emotional journey of life. A lot of people have told me that I sound 10 years older than I actually am. I've been through experiences that are uncommon for the society I inhabit. A combination of those and an innate personality is responsible for my seemingly early maturity. Though, when people say that they rarely mean it as a compliment. Most people don't actually want to be around mature people, as they're deemed boring at times. Too mature for...